Sorry for not blogging for some time.. As usual, I am working late and struggling with some things in my life..
I actually had a thanksgiving entry but is still a WIP, so will just have to delay that one. When you are struggling, you can hardly find any inspiration to write such things.
Think there are alot of questions popping up onto my mind recently. First of all, I have been in a shithole again, facing the same old scenario that I had faced 4 years ago. In actual fact, I really dunno how to handle such question even though I had did so confidently back then. I will not discuss here what is it here and I am not going to tell anyone even if I am asked. But the thing is a very hard and painful experience which I took a long time to heal, even at this moment. I had to make a decision again, and the uncertainity of the outcome is bearing on me with pain and even nightmares.
Yet I know that I had to go through this once again, even I roughly know what the outcome will be. Concidently, a couple of my friends are facing some struggles and pain on their own. There is always a time of grief and pain and also a time of happinness. No one can escape this season. How fast it heals depends on how the individual tackles it. At a time of grief, i find myself helping others, talking to them, let them feel loved.
I totally disagree over the statement that happinness is a choice. There are circumstances in life which is beyond our control. How to feel happy if you lost you loved one due to unforseeable circumstances.
I had been thinking alot this days, and I did asked God again, why this again. I won’t deny I am lost now, and even in deep grief at of this moment. At a time like this, I have been keeping myself strong, telling myself to have confidence in myself, faith in the Lord. Because I know I am capable, I am good, I can achieve many things in life, I won’t let this kind of setback brings me down again. To have faith in Him because believing that His plans are wonderful, giving me hope to look forward to tomorrow.
One of the most hurtful things is not being able to love someone, even you know you have so much things waiting to do, waiting to make her happy.
Having the hope to live, and having the confidence that I am capable. I can’t control the pain, but slowly day by day, it will goes away.
Just read an article, http://www.webmd.com/heart-disease/news/20100217/study-happiness-good-heart
A few ways to keep you happy:
- Express gratitude on a regular basis.
- Practice being optimistic.
- Engage in frequent acts of kindness.
- Visualize one’s best self.
- Savor joyful events.
- Practice forgiveness.
“Finally, regular exercise and sexual activity and good sleep are all associated with increased self-reported happiness,” he writes.
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